I had the biggest crush on him (my Joseph) when I was grade 5. He’s not my classmate but I knew him because we used to play habulan after class. I was known as tomboy and all the things associated with it, but my crush for him was full-blown. I kept singing Ariel Rivera’s “Minsan lang kita iibigin” (I Know… ) because i believe that uber cheesy line “ang pagmamahal sa iyo ay walang hangganan dahil ang minsan ay magpakailanman” summed up my feelings for him.

We became closed friends when we started highschool, we used to argue things about our favorite shows too, like who is much cooler, Kurapika or Hisoka. and then he suddenly started going out with other girls. and just like you i also felt left-out. I kept my feelings for him until we graduated high school. There were times when I would think that i already outgrew my feelings for him but it would just take a few minutes in his company to make me go back to where I was. So I kept my distance and continued to watch him. there was even a time when I watched him crying over his girlfriend.

I lost all contact and news about him when I was in college. but on the day of my interview for my first job, I saw him. on the street. up to now, I still don’t know what happened on that day, but I just said to myself that I’m over him.

you’re right, in some cases first love dies. at this point in my life too, I don’t see myself hooking up with him, although i pictured that scene a thousand times before. and as for saying first love never grows old, you are again correct. the memories, the sweet, the bittersweet and the bitter remains the same. although you could say that you’ve move on.

sorry this comment is too long but you’re amazing! I’ll probably be stalking your blog from now on.