A Cheesy Letter For My Future Boyfriend

On June 3, 2007, I wrote a short essay/journal entry, which I sent out as an email to my friends. A year later, I posted it on my blog and pretty much said that I don’t believe it’s ever gonna happen anymore. I have actually forgotten about it already until a couple of days ago, my friend, Selda forwarded the said email to the Gerry’s Gang and I was reminded yet again how much of a hopeless romantic I am. And this is why I love writing. All my thoughts and emotions become immortalized on paper, or in this case, the cyber world.

Though my naivete made me laugh, I found my self getting emotional because at last, I can finally read this out to someone – except I have to translate it to English first… I don’t think I gave the Tagalog piece justice but it’s cool. The namja chingu isn’t a fan of big words anyway.

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Keso
Kring Elenzano
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Balang araw, may magmamahal din sa akin ng lubus-lubusan. Yun bang iiiyak niya na lang ang umaapaw na pag-ibig sa kanyang puso. Gagawan niya ako ng awitin, susulatan ng tula at titingala sa mga tala habang abot langit ang ngiti – dahil ako ang kanyang naiisip. Higit sa lahat, ipagdarasal niya ako at matimtimang papangarapin na sanay mahalin ko rin siya.

Sa gabi, ako ang bida sa kanyang panaginip. Ang aking larawan ang magiging tanging laman ng kanyang pitaka, kasama ng perang iipunin niya para sa akin. Hihintayin niya ako sa trabaho kahit na matapos ako ng alas dos ng madaling araw at hindi uuwi hanggat ako’y payapa na sa aking kama .

Ipagluluto niya ako ng maasim na sinigang at hahanapin ang mga pelikulang matagal ko nang nais mapanood. Ipipinta niya ang aking mukha, lilinisin ang barado kong lababo at paliliguan ang aming mga aso. Hindi nya rin ako patitigilin sa aking bisyo, bagkus ay sasabayan ang mga trip ko sa buhay.

Gagalangin niya ang mga magulang ko, makikipag-basketball sa kapatid ko at magmamano sa aking lola. Patatawanin niya ang aking mga kaibigan at gagawin ang lahat, masigurado lang na ako’y masaya, hindi bilang alipin, ngunit isang taong nagmamahal – ng lubus-lubusan. At ang pagmamahal na ito’y magpapasaya rin sa kanya.

Balang araw, may hahawak rin ng aking kamay at hahalik sa aking mga labi. Yayakapin niya ako nang mahigpit at ibubulong sa aking tenga na hinding hindi niya ako pababayaan. At sa gitna ng kaguluhan, kasamaan at kahirapan sa buhay, magpapasalamat siya pagkat ako’y nakilala niya at matatanto niyang may mabuti at maganda at maaliwalas pa rin pala sa mundo.

Marahil ay hindi ko pa nga siya natatagpuan pero darating ang panahong makakapag-kape rin kami, habang pinanonood si haring araw na nagiging anino ng gabi. At sa iyo, sa taong magmamahal rin sa akin balang araw, ‘wag kang mag-alala. Pagdating ng panahong mabasa ko sa iyo itong munti kong komposisyon, mahal na rin kita – ng lubus lubusan.

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Cheese

Someday, someone , too, will love me completely. So much so that he will cry because of the overflowing love in his heart. He will make me a song, write me poetry and he will look up at the cosmos, with a big smile – because I am in his thoughts. Most of all, he will pray for me and fervently hope that I will love him, too.

At night, I will be the heroine in his dreams. My photo will be the sole content of his wallet, along with the money that he will save up for me. He will wait for me at work even if I finish at 2am and won’t go home until I am peaceful in my slumber.

He will cook delicious sinigang for me and he look for the films that I’ve long been wanting to watch. He will paint my face, unclog my sink and clean up our pet dogs. He also won’t make me stop with my vices and instead will go along with whatever I wanna do.

He will respect my my parents, play basketball with my brother and kiss the hands of my lola. He will make my friends laugh and will do everything just to make sure that I am happy, not as a slave, but as a person who loves me – completely. And this love will bring him happiness, too.

Someday, someone also hold my hand and kiss my lips. He will hug me tight and whisper in my ears that he will always take care of me. And in the midst of all the chaos, evil and poverty in this world, he will be thankful for he had met me and it will make him realize that there’s still goodness and beauty and serenity, after all.

Perhaps I haven’t met him yet but in time, we will also get to have coffee, while watching the sun become a shadow of the night. And to you, to the person who will love me someday, don’t worry. When the time comes that I get to read this little composition to you, I, too have already loved you – completely.

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This is for you, hyung. Because YOU ARE the person in this piece. Isn’t it funny that I wrote about you three years before we met?

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